I am finding it difficult to keep up with this blog, I haven't documented details of my life, thoughts and feelings since I found out my Mum had been reading my diary when I was a teenager :( I keep asking myself is it worth it? Does anyone really want to read about my life? All I seem to be doing at the moment is criticising all that I have written, especially when I have written things and then learn new things, which makes me realise how naive I really am! Maybe in years to come it will be a way of looking back at how far I have travelled down my path, who knows.
I have met some wonderful people within a few weeks, some I would like to say feel as though they are going to be 'forever' friends. I am not the type of person to hide behind a persona (maybe I am too honest and open) and I only hope I do not offend too many people along the way.
I seem to be struggling emotionally with my feelings at the moment due to upset within my 'so called' family. My husband and children are my rocks but other members of my family seem to control and destroy my individuality. A very close member of my family has given me an ultimatum...believe everything in the Christian Bible, believe in God and Jesus OR you will be cut out of the will. Well at 33 years of age I have finally decided that I shall NOT be controlled by them any longer! I am a person in my own right and have a mind of my own. That's worth more to me than any amount of money!
I am still unsure of where to actually begin with my learning but think I am picking things up slowly by listening and reading. I haven't really had much chance to meditate but will persevere. I have many Pagan 'activities' lined up in the near future and I look forward to them all :)
So maybe I will 'keep it up!'
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